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Sunday, August 21, 2011

Tearing apart


Difficult, grief, remorse, anguish, sadness, loneliness, pain, hurt and loss.
 I do not agree by my actions and guilt is upon me. I do regret of the loss because it was fine and happy, but sometimes, breaking up just happens because it’s complicated.
  Where we go through on this miserable road, I hope we emerge knowing that whatever we go through holds significant power in shaping us, for better or for worse. Experience is personal and I will review it as much as I can to learn most out of it.

do not fear mistakes, rather fear the absence of learning from it’

 I commend on the strength that she showed during this time. sorry it had to be that way. 

Sunday, July 31, 2011

long time no see blog

 hello hello blog, its has been super long since i wrote an entry. life has been filled with so many other things like completing my bmed science program, church, girlfriend, games, sports, drums and so many things that i have not written down into this blog.

 the reason for this entry is because i know a few people who have commented on me not updating my blog. wow, my friends actually read my blog. first of course is my gf. M****  also asked me to continue (haha you know who you are). and my bmed housemate. haha.

  well just for the time being i'm in penang and i just went to this dam which was going to be renovating until 2016. me and my host was lucky to find out that today was the last day before they were gonna close it down temporarily. anyway, it was here that i actualy thought that i should write something in, and pen down some thoughts on life and stuff.  for instance today, at the dam, being surrounded by so many people of different ages and walks of life. it made me realise that this is what life is. growing up, working, becoming a couple and then getting married, getting kids, and going for trips  such as exercising in the parks. thats what humanity is right now, living in a peaceful state.
  also, i somehow appreciate the word ideas and people who change the world. as i walked through the crowd at the dam, i wondered about a person who could lead all this people. right now it was a mass of people with different skills and types. imagine if a leader could harnest their skills to complete a task, a feat, a manmade marvel. that would require a great deal of wisdom, experience with people and a mission that would guide everyone. humanity, if everyone had one mission, imagine the great feats that could be accomplished. more man made marvels.
  so just some random thoughts that i thought i should pen down. :) as i welcome myself back to this blog

Friday, April 22, 2011

Reflection

last night, Pastor tim talked about campus. here are a  point that i recalled. 
Campus is the best time for learning. Paths are formed while in campus. Eg, pstr tim became passionate about  serving God in campus and now, he is a pastor(he did not know that one day he would).

I hope it is not too late for me to do things for God. I am filled with regret of not doing more. But hopefully one day, God will realize this heart that bounces back and forth, and forces the part that wants to do more for him to be stronger than the part that holds back.

on another note, i want to pen my sharing last night on what I have learnt  from research.

1    1)      To have confidence in whatever I do
2)      to be creative is to self express and to hold that what I do is a part of me
3)      to back up what I do with reasons.
4)      Able to research up things on the internet better
5)      Organize my time
6)      That even with a busy life, there is still time to serve. It’s a matter of priority and interest


Even from this extra year that I am here, even with the meager 2 months that I have, I have participated in things that really interest me. That thing is capoeira. The Brazilian martial art that I now love. To fall in love with something is wonderful. All you think about is it. It drives you to do things more, achieve more, want more, be better than you currently are. Some little lessons that are found in this are:

1)      Life is like the roda, it hits you, but take it as a lesson. Fight back.
2)      Life can be unfair. So better prepare yourself
3)      Art exercise (eg. Capoeira moves) leaves you feeling good. Leaves you with power in your arms and bulk on your skin

And finally, even in the 2 months. I was able to meet someone special. She is one person who cares, takes care, and vibrates almost at the same frequency. God must have been graceful to send this person across this path. Risky as it is in a few months, but we enjoy whatever we can of it. For life, is whatever we make of it~ 

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Strangers

i saw this great video on relationships. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSdELZxEnHY&feature=player_embedded
i commend on wongfu's work

a sad but true, thoughful process of a relationship that fails.

stage 1: meeting
stage 2: chase
stage 3: honeymoon
stage 4: comfortable(the deciding stage)
stage 5: tolerance
stage 6: downhill
stage 7: breaking up

definitely worth contemplating about

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Confidence

Confidence is firmly believing in the decisions we make,

not wavering 

but defending it with its appropriate reasons


lessons from the lab